Mirror of Being

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1. Talked big
2. Ran small
3. Loved loud
4. Feared it all
5. I wore a mask
6. Like it could protect the frame
7. But the mask got cracks
8. Now I question the name
9. I used to pass my own reflection
10. Like the glass could see too far
11. Like the image held a question
12. ‘Bout the truth of who we are
13. Every flaw became identity
14. Every thought became a claim
15. Built a self from repetition
16. Tried to stabilize a name
17. Borrowed gestures, borrowed meaning
18. Wove a story out of view
19. Called it “me” and kept performing
20. Till the act felt more than true
21. But at night the structure trembled
22. When the noise began to fade
23. Who was left without the motion?
24. Who was left without the play?
25. How you move inside a system
26. Still feel lost within the role?
27. How you speak of being present
28. While you’re absent from your soul?
29. Then a silence split the pattern
30. Not a voice, but something clear
31. “You’re not broken into pieces
32. You’re the field that holds them here”
33. Had to sit without direction
34. Had to drop what I defend
35. Had to meet the one observing
36. Not the story I pretend
37. I’m looking in the mirror like, “Who sees who?”
38. Is it me in the glass or the glass seeing through?
39. Every scar, every light, every fracture I hold
40. Feels like windows in a structure I was never told
41. I was running from the witness,
42. from the quiet, from the view
43. Now I’m walking back to presence,
44. back to what is always true
45. I thought I had to repair
46. what I thought I controlled
47. Now I see every break is a mirror of the whole
48. Mirror of my own soul
49. Mirror of the whole
50. I would say “I’m fine” to stabilize the surface
51. Mask the shifting ground
52. beneath the sense of purpose
53. Collected every failure like it proved identity
54. Turned experience to evidence
55. of who I thought I’d be
56. But what if pain is not a prison?
57. What if memory’s not a chain?
58. What if every form of suffering
59. Is perception under strain?
60. I learned tears don’t need a meaning
61. They just move when something’s seen
62. I learned anger isn’t evil
63. It’s compression in between
64. Doubt don’t cancel any truth
65. It just questions what is known
66. Pushes deeper past the answers
67. Till no answer stands alone
68. So I spoke to every fragment
69. Not to fix or to remove
70. But to see what stays unchanging
71. While the fragments always move
72. [Pre-Chorus]
73. If all things rise and vanish
74. Who is it that remains?
75. If every state is temporary
76. What is constant through the change?
77. I’m looking in the mirror like, “Who sees who?”
78. Is it me in the glass or the glass seeing through?
79. Every scar, every light, every fracture I hold
80. Feels like windows in a structure I was never told
81. I was running from the witness,
82. from the quiet, from the view
83. Now I’m walking back to presence,
84. back to what is always true
85. I thought I had to repair
86. what I thought I controlled
87. Now I see every break is a mirror of the whole
88. Mirror of my own soul
89. Mirror of the whole
90. I tried to out-think existence
91. Tried to optimize my state
92. Turned my heart into a process
93. Tried to calculate my fate
94. Every moment became future
95. Every now became a tool
96. Missed the fact the present moment
97. Was the only actual rule
98. But grace don’t operate in systems
99. It don’t follow what you plan
100. It appears in open spaces
101. Where you stop becoming “man”
102. In the pause between intention
103. In the gap between the thought
104. In the place where identity
105. Realizes it is not
106. So I asked a different question
107. Not “how do I improve?”
108. But “what am I beneath the movement
109. Of everything I do?”
110. What if “self” is just a pattern?
111. What if “me” is just a frame?
112. What if what I’ve been protecting
113. Never had a solid name?
114. No role
115. No mask
116. No past
117. No task
118. Just presence
119. That doesn’t collapse
120. [Break / Spoken]
121. If I am not the story
122. If I am not the thought
123. If I am not the memory
124. Or the things that I have sought
125. Then what remains
126. When all dissolves?
127. Not nothing
128. But something
129. That cannot be resolved
130. I’m looking in the mirror like, “Who sees who?”
131. Is it me in the glass or the glass seeing through?
132. Every scar, every light, every fracture I hold
133. Feels like windows in a structure I was never told
134. I was running from the witness,
135. from the quiet, from the view
136. Now I’m walking back to presence,
137. back to what is always true
138. I thought I had to repair
139. what I thought I controlled
140. Now I see every break is a mirror of the whole
141. Mirror of my own soul
142. Mirror of the whole
143. Talked big
144. Ran small
145. Loved loud
146. Felt it all
147. No more mask
148. No more role
149. Not becoming
150. Just whole